Monday, October 27, 2008

happy deepavali
i m not hapi at all
2dae actually want to have lunch at sakura wit my gf and family
bt in the end .......
crap
stupid holiday
i rather today normal school day
i m paying half for my gf then my sis for my parent
then early in the morning
my mum haven even wake up my dad wen to my grandparent hse
WHAT IS THIS???
cant my dad pei pei family for a day
everytime go grandparent hse for
i spent my whole week at home
whole month at home
whole year at home
crap life
then lyk tat my mum angry
stupid crap
all this COLD WAR cox of qurral which happen almost 1 month ago
they are both childish
pls larh
u thin u stress
bt have u tot of ur children
no
not children
oni mi
......................
to other i may not seem mature
ppl may even think i childish
bt i have one thing to say
if i can be lyk all other youth then i will be veri hapi
my mum stress with our sch work and home things
lyk i dun, as a brother i also stress with my sibling sch work
and i m oso a member of this family, u think tat i m not stress with it
n wat more
i m more farmiliar wit wat goin on wit my study
this increase my stress
then my dad, his the oni one hu work
i noe tat is veri stressful
bt u think tat i m so heartless
everytime you work till so late my heartache you know
n tat is also a stress
my relative
they are chaotic
i dun1 to name
bt y are all their problem coming to mi
in total
my stress are piling up
PILLING UP!!!!!!!
i m just a teenager
why m i suffering from all this
ppl n friends might say i m funny or lame
bt i m doin so cox i want to numb myself
i dun dare to face the reality
i dun dare to face myself wen i m alone
i m lonely
i m depress
i m sad
no hope
no joy
no life